Spinning: John Mayer - Daughters
Yes, I don't like rude people. Someone spoilt my day today. This pathetic guy whom I suspect has severe inferiority complex, that is. Happened to be a senior. Let's just say there's bad blood between my squad and him. And he generalized that EVERYONE had something against him. I wasn't aware, so in an attempt to show some basic courtesy and respect, I waved and said 'hi' to him. What was his response? He looked at me, as if I was a stranger. Then he turned away. I see, I see. So that's what I get when I show him some basic respect. A child learns from his mistakes - when he gets a negative response to something that he has done wrong, he doesn't do it again. What more me? I'm no longer a child, so I think I'm going to stop showing him basic respect. I don't think he needs it - after all he rejected all forms of respect displayed by me. It's okay. Boon Ee told me, 'When someone slaps you, turn the other cheek.' I guess I'm going to have to heed her advice. But of course, I'm not as stupid as to get slapped again. I'll never, ever do this again.
I read the news - heard that some guy in Tampines killed his entire family, then commited suicide. Whenever I read articles about suicide, I get this really strange feeling. The other day, I read that a Korean actress committed suicide as well. That same feeling plagued me back then. It isn't a good feeling... it's this fleeting moment of despair. It's like... wasted! That kind of thing, you know? There was once when there were rumours floating around that somebody in school (a staff member) had committed suicide. At the moment I was really floored... I was really shocked 'cos I didn't know teachers would do these things. Yup I know that teachers are humans, but I thought they would be the last people to end their own lives! After all they're supposed to educate students... In the end, it turned out that suicide wasn't the way she ended her life... she was just severely ill. I know I sound like an emotional freak here, but honestly, anyone around you could be capable of ending their own lives if they have that negative mentality... and what if it's someone you know, someone whom you care for? (touch wood. but i'm trying to make a point here.) I just think it's foolish to end your own life... that's all I'm trying to say.
Enough about melancholy stuff... You know what? I hate JC life. Hey, that's another melancholy issue. Anyway. I just wanna get out of this damned place SOON. There are good and bad sides to JC life... but I just can't bring myself to be happy, you know? Happy like in secondary school. Yah I JUST WANNA COMPLETE MY As and get the crap out of that place... I'm not saying my JC is crap, I'm talking about JC life in general.... erghh!!! I reach home late, there's no time for my tutorials, and I KEEP FAILING ALL MY TESTS (despite having studied for it overnight)!
... Already in a holiday mood. And I went out to buy The Sims 2: University! Heh. Not completely satisfied with it, it was above average but not exactly excellent... kind of set my expectations for it too high I guess. I didn't do any work today. I just don't feel like moving my hand to do my work today.
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