Spinning: Tanya Chua - My Colour TV Set
Mark my words - I am one lucky ass, as well as a blessed girl. Time and again I have been such a pessimist and yet God will never ever fail me. I've learnt my lesson. My peeps would be glad to know that in future, I think I'm going to be less pessimistic. And if you don't know me personally or well enough, it's not surprising that you're not shocked by what I've just said. It's almost a miracle to have me say that I'm going to be less pessimistic.
Pessimism is in my nature - I can just imagine it flowing through my veins and arteries... So what caused the turnaround? Basically, I got posted to TJC. That's not all. The cutoff for Arts stream this year was a partial 7, meaning that not all 7 pointers could stay... and yah being the suay one most of the time, I got 7. So I was praying and praying for myself to stay in TJ. Not that I have anything against MJ (my 2nd choice), it's just that TJ is nearer, and if I stay I wouldn't have to go through another torturous transition period. I'm not really a chameleon, you see. I'm telling you, this entire drama of 'O' Levels is ... unnecessary. I was so mad when MOE decided to abolish the prelims for the year after us. Why only now? Many people were crying foul. But whatever. What's done has been done. Honestly, I would be a happier person if I didn't have to wait for my results - be it posting results or 'O' Level results - every so often in the first 3 months. 'O' Level was just the start of the drama. And finally,
finally, it ends here. I'm so glad. I hated being a part of the drama.
Anyway, it's ALL over, and, yeah. Guess without this whole hullabaloo I would have remained a faithless person. Every waiting period I prayed and prayed very hard. The first time round I was a faithless woman. The 2nd, a little more faith. The 3rd and final moment, I thrusted everything into God's hands. I guess that was the right move. I'm not preaching here, btw. It's just a personal account.
I don't like going through transition periods, though I understand it's very necessary. Let's see what Doctor Huh-you-got-13-what-happened has to say the next time I visit him (choy, the later the better. I wouldn't wanna see a doctor that often) He insisted I couldn't get into TJ the first time round. I bet he would have said the same for my 'O' Level results... but anyway, if he really asked me HOW on earth I managed to get in... (which is really rude, btw - it's implying if I pulled any strings or if I attempted to appeal) ... I'm going to retort that I kept faith... not just in my God but in MYSELF.
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